Thursday, October 11, 2007

Ok, so I still haven't picked up my camera. Sorry, folks.

Isaac will have his eye procedure tomorrow at noon. He will have a biopsy on Monday at 1pm. Other than that, he's doing about the same.

Hannah and I and another mom and her son went to a nearby mall today for a couple of hours. The kids played in the play area and then we went to the food court for dinner. It's nice to just get away from the hospitals and the RMDH. I asked my "mom friend" who is from Ecuador, if she'd ever had a massage and she said no. I think I'm going to contact some local massage places and see if I buy one or two if they will give us a couple free ones. I'd like to treat my new friends to a massage. I know they would love it. She's so appreciative when I invite her to go places with me--the grocery store yesterday and the mall today. This evening, after we arrived back at the RMDH, she gave me a scarf from Ecuador and a clay nativity scene that her mother crafted. I thought that was so nice. So now we have a wooden nativity scene from Germany (from our exchange student, Maxi) and a clay nativity scene from Ecuador from my new friend. I just love it.

Jason is busy with work and things to do around the house this weekend. If Isaac has surgery next week, Jason will come down for the surgery.

I think I'm kind of in denial about "all of this" right now. I think tomorrow I will just go to the hospital for rounds and baby kisses and then take a couple hours for myself in the hospital cafeteria while Hannah is in the activity room. I think if I had a massage right now I would cry the entire hour. Just letting go of stress, expectations, thoughts of failure...a bunch of junk. I feel like I've had very few moments of clarity in the last few months and that's overwhelming to me. I just need to catch that third wind, like I mentioned a few days ago. I think once Isaac is eating again and there is hope for going home, I'll feel better.

Well, Hannah finally fell asleep (it's 8:53) and I'm going to take the monitor downstairs and watch CSI. I know, I know, Grey's Anatomy. I love that show, too, but I've been a CSI (Las Vegas) fan from season one. Plus, then it gives me something to talk to the nurses about in the morning. They'll give me the rundown about Meredith and McDreamy.

Maybe I'll remember to pick up the camera tomorrow?!

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

I really hope you are able to have some time to yourself tomorrow. Sounds like you need it. I will pray for clarity - and that you get yourself a massage SOON! It was great to see you guys, but too short. Hang in there - you are amazing! Love Rachel

Anonymous said...

I woke up several times last night, and you were on my mind and heart. It was a good opportunity to pray for you! I am praying for Isaac's eye surgery today, too. You are a blessing to us, with all that you have gone through and how you are handling it!! Hang in there, Tiffany--you have many people bringing you before the Throne and caring for you and your family. Thank you for being so open and honest about everything. With love in HIm, from a sister in Christ in Ohio.

Anonymous said...

I've been reading your blog for a while - (the Buck's blog). I will pray for you and Isaac's procedure today - that it will be a success, and that you will have peace. Isaac has quite a cute little sister - love those curls! Hang in there - from another sister in Christ in Lowell, MI.

Anonymous said...

Good morning Papa's peanut!!!!,
My computer was down yesterday and this morning. Just back from Sam's getting meds.
I am praying that all will go well with "little bit" today. It sounds positive that this is done more routinely on these little tiny ones so they know what they are doing. Enjoy a little time to yourself. It sounds like your friend is enjoying being around you so you are blessing her and her child. That is wonderful that you are thinking of others at the same time going through what you are with Isaac. Christ is shining through you, I am so proud of you.
Papa is doing okay, just so you know.
Christ's Love and Ours, Gram and Papa "v"