Wake Up Call

Jason's got a wake up call for 5:15am. Ouch. He'll drive directly to work tomorrow. It's so nice to have the weekends together. I hate that he has to go, but I'm very happy that he has the opportunity to keep coming back.

Tonight is our last night at the McKinley Grand Hotel. It is bittersweet. We've come to know most of the staff here and just love them. Hannah asks for our same server every morning for breakfast. One of the ladies is trying to set up a fundraiser for us. We have loved every minute of our stay here. We're leaving because we'll now be staying at the home of a couple right here in Canton--only minutes from the hospital. They read about us in the paper and immediately called and left a message for us at the hotel. We went to their house for dinner this evening and had a wonderful time. I think we all realized very quickly that God had carefully orchestrated our meeting. We'll have our own room and bathroom. And, having 7 grandchildren, they have a lower level full of toys. Hannah was hugging them by the time we left. By the way, two of their grandchildren raised $40 for us by taking a collection in their neighborhood. We were touched by their big hearts. We will be staying with them until we return to MI.

Through all of this, we have been greatly blessed.

It's a huge transition to go from our life outside the hospital, to the NICU. Everytime I see Isaac I remember that all of this, is for him. I usually feel sad when I leave the hospital because I'm trying to love my new son, but not able to do much of anything. I want to be able to hold him and love him. I feel like all I do is try to figure out where to be and what to do, just to see my son a few minutes a day. Several have suggested that I make a trip home and take a break. At this point, I can't do that. I would feel like I was abandoning him. I want to be here. As long as the three of us can tough it out, we're going to keep up our vigil over Isaac. I KNOW he is in God's care. I have to trust that God knows what He's doing.